Acually, I am tired and sick of Korea life.
My relationship with friends is old.
I can’t feel truth from them anymore.
I am alone.
I can’t feel comfortable even from my family.
My mother always makes me confused.
I don’t know how to meet her feelings.
Friends also, they are not same with my mind.
This is time to cutting relationship off before go to Canada.
I need a new relationship not old, not sick, not annoying, not dizzy.
I need people who make me smile and energetic and positive.
I wanna focus on myself not people around me including my family.
I wanna love myself now.
In Canada, I will start newly.
It must be fresh motivation to me.
I sometimes imagine that I am sitting on the bench near by sea of Nova Stocia with iced black coffee.
At that time, a cheeze cat is coming to me ^-^
She or He sits beside me and looking at me with pretty eyes.
‘Take me to your house’
So we made friend each other and start to live together.
I am not lonley when I imagine a immaginary cat in my mind.
But, when I talk or meet with people, I feel like I am in a desert of cold night alone.
Actually, I’m not enough bright and good girl.
But I always act so.
I wanna know real me.
Who am I?
I know that going to Canada is a kinds of way to avoid Korean life.
Also, I know there is no paradise in Canada.
But I need a big rest.